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Sunday, October 4th, 2009
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3:39 am - games
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"...I also thought how sad games are for their rules and rituals, for making us absurdly hopeful, for being predictable, for their pathetic purpose, which was to divert us for the length of time it took to play them."
"And at the end of it all a certain apprehension, because no one knew what would happen when it was over. That was the sadness of games."
- Paul Theroux, A game of dice
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I wish we were once again the way we were.
current mood:  nostalgic
current music: Telepopmusik – Breathe
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| Friday, May 15th, 2009
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9:31 am - kaboom.
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The Silence of Plants
Wislawa Szymborska
A one-sided relationship is developing quite well between you and me.
I know what a leaf, petal, kernel, cone, and stem are,
and I know what happens to you in April and December.
Though my curiosity is unrequited,
I gladly stoop for some of you,
and for others I crane my neck.
I have names for you:
maple, burdock, liverwort,
eather, juniper, mistletoe, and forget-me-not;
but you have none for me.
After all, we share a common journey.
When traveling together, it's normal to talk,
exchanging remarks, say, about the weather,
or about the stations flashing past.
We wouldn't run out of topics
for so much connects us.
The same star keeps us in reach.
We cast shadows according to the same laws.
Both of us at least try to know something,
each in our own way,
and even in what we don't know
there lies a resemblance.
Just ask and I will explain as best I can:
what it is to see through my eyes,
why my heart beats,
and how come my body is unrooted.
But how does someone answer questions
which have never been posed,
and when, on top of that
the one who would answer
is such an utter nobody to you?
Undergrowth, shrubbery,
meadows, and rushes…
everything I say to you is a monologue,
and it is not you who's listening.
A conversation with you is necessary
and impossible,
urgent in a hurried life
and postponed for never.
current mood:  weird
current music: glen hansard and marketa irglova- falling slowly
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| Tuesday, January 20th, 2009
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10:19 am - i've missed this
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oh wow. i've missed my lj! i miss writing. i miss you. i miss my sappy cringe-worthy posts! i've missed this!!! hope i'll find the motivation to write again.
current mood:  sleepy
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| Tuesday, April 22nd, 2008
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5:47 pm - happy... earth day!
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happy earth day to everyone! talagang si mother earth nakikisabay pa sa akin. inggitera! chos. haha! at happy kung ano man. haha!
i miss blogging! sige. birthday resolution ko na ito. go me!
ang tagal mag 10 minutes! i have to meet my lovely friends na.
current mood:  happy
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| Wednesday, March 5th, 2008
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11:33 am - horoscope
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so nagbabasa ako ng inquirer at natawa ako sa horoscope ko for today! hahaha!
"Romance with a boss or someone who is older or more established than you is likely now. Tread carefully here; this can be a tricky situation."
scratch the boss part since my boss is a girl. but the rest... GAME NA. BRING IT FATE! NOW NA! haha! sya ang magingat! ;p hahaha!
current mood: amused
current music: my brain telling me to sleep
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| Monday, February 25th, 2008
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9:03 pm - Happily-ever-after? The Filipino’s love affair with People Power.
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i need a break from thesising. so i'm reposting a paper i wrote 2 years ago. being the procrastinator that i am, i browsed my word documents and i saw a paper i wrote last feb 25, 2006 about people power for my polsci class. the timing is just perfect. there's even a noise barrage and concert going on in ateneo right now because of the whole ZTE controversy while i am camped here in starbucks katipunan. will get back to work after. promise.
EDSA 1
EDSA 2
 
FEB 25, 2006 and FEB 25, 2008
Happily-ever-after? The Filipino’s love affair with People Power.
People power should be a good thing right? It SHOULD be. However, as with most things, too much of something is/can be bad. People power has become a habit that we can’t seem to kick. It has become our form of escape, the solution to all political problems plaguing our country, an addictive drug to temporarily pacify the people. You get the picture. And we seem to have a never-ending love affair with it.
As Mark Almond put it in his paper, Today's cult of People Power as the solution to corrupt and incompetent government risks promoting an endless cycle of upheaval. The only solution to the cold dawn of cynical reality which follows the long night of revolutionary ecstasy is another fix of revolution. This endless cycle holds true in our country. We recently celebrated the 20th anniversary of the February 1986 Edsa revolution and what woke me up last Friday morning, pre-Edsa celebration, was the announcement of no classes, a coup attempt and Presdential Proclamation No. 1017, declaring the country under a state of emergency. I woke up thinking, (sorry for the offensive language) What the fuck? Nanaman? I couldn’t help my reaction because in the span of 20 years, we have had numerous people powers to oust the incumbent leaders. Take Edsa dos, edsa tres, the 1989 coup attempt, last Friday’s rally as examples. And what happened? Did we get the empowerment that we are looking for? I think not. What we have brought upon ourselves is the disruption of everyday life, division, the plummet of our economy, and unnecessary stress. For crying out loud, haven’t we learned something from the previous successful and unsuccessful revolutions? Apparently not. My belief in the “power” of people power has taken a dive over the past years. Things cannot change overnight. It never does. What worked before does not necessarily mean that it will work again but there seems to be a delusion that people power is still the solution to everything.
Don’t get me wrong. The 1986 revolution still makes me proud to be a Filipino. The image of people standing up to tanks on the EDSA highway with prayers, flowers and songs, all fighting for the peaceful restoration of democracy, and being successful at that, still brings a sense of pride in me. We were all so optimistic and hopeful about the future of our nation. However, recent events make our optimism but a fading memory. People power can only do so much. It cannot guarantee us of a renewed and better government. It does not guarantee us anything if we do not have a clear revolutionary ideology, leadership, and program.
Nowadays, I can see that the magic of people power is gone for most of us. Little has been done to strengthen our economy, overhaul the political system and improve the lives of poor Filipinos. People, all of The People, were socialised under the old regime and cannot escape from the reality that its grimy habits cling to them after its leaders and symbols have been toppled. We see the rising into power of those who we once ousted, the trapos, the cronies. The face of Philippine politics hasn’t changed much and we are still catering to the needs of the elite. We seem to have forgotten the cause that we fought for and we all go back to the normal routines of our everyday lives with the same complaints about the government with the problems we are all oh-so-familiar with.
People power is so much so like an ecstasy drug. We just keep on popping it. It bonds people with the same agenda, gives a different high, is intoxicating, addictive, and when it wears off, crashes you back to the harsh reality that you wanted to escape in the first place. The day after gives you a headache, a slap of reality more painful than before and a fucked up state of mind. And what do we get out of it? Awareness perhaps and hope? Probably. But as a nation, we are not taken seriously anymore because we go back to our old habits again and again. There seems to be no growth and people power is now a joke, a serious case of addiction. Far from energising true democracy, People Power's "day after" of cynical politics as usual causes the people who went on the streets in millions to sink into apathy for years to come.
Personally, I am sick and tired of all the attempts at people power. Sure, it worked during EDSA 1 and EDSA dos but last Friday’s people power attempt was pathetic. I even went to the streets of Ayala just to experience the whole shebang and it looked like an amusement park- with vendors lining the streets selling their goods, people having picnics, confetti all over the place, people laughing and joking around, flags of different colors being waved around and people doing their own things and not minding the speakers. I couldn’t take the event seriously because it was a joke. Can’t old and opposition political leaders just bury the hatchet and instead of a divided nation work for a united one? Sure, I agree with some of what they are fighting for and I do empathize with them but maybe instead of another revolution we can find a better solution. We should not settle for what is convenient. We should find actions that do work. I felt that the attempt was a mockery of what the real meaning of people power should be.
Do we really get the happily-ever-after that we want? NO. Not even close. People Power is too often an inverted fairy story - the triumph of innocence coming at the start and the Ugly Sisters of intrigue and ambition coming on stage in triumph for the final curtain. This is the sorry-ass state that we are in right now and instead of doing something about it, our stubborn asses just relapse into the same situation and give the next generation the burden of resolving the same issues.
current mood:  super duper stressed
current music: someday- sugar ray
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| Thursday, February 21st, 2008
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3:01 pm
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"I will have poetry in my life. And adventure. And love. Love above all. No, not the artful postures of love, not playful and poetical games of love for the amusement of an evening, but love that overthrows life. Unbiddable, ungovernable - like a riot in the heart, and nothing to be done, come ruin or rapture."- Viola from Shakespeare in Love
current mood:  anxious
current music: charm attack- leona naess
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| Tuesday, February 12th, 2008
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10:46 am - a year
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it has been a year since my mom passed away. wow. a year. it feels like yesterday. i miss her. everyday. i still get upset at the idea that she won't be there to see me graduate, to see me walk down the aisle, to be with me when i go on trips, to enjoy her grandchildren, to see me making something out of myself. but i know she's with me. she is me and i am her. i am my mother's daughter.
current mood:  sad
current music: silence
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| Sunday, February 3rd, 2008
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1:53 am - family drunkeness
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hahahahahaha! i'm kinda tipsy right now. 4 shots of tequila, 2 glasses of wine and a glass of this new concoction. ayus. alcohol tolerance leveling up! woohoo! this family may not always be stellar pero bumabawi naman. and they're the only family i've got. so yea. kahit na hindi ako okay with them all the time, i still love them. ganun talaga. laugh trip ang gabi na ito. ang daming bloopers at quotable quotes!
"shill dod!"- instead of chill dude.]
"like a dagger in the heart."- sakitan na to!
"you can't understand hindu?!"- language na pala ngayon ang hindu! hahaha!
"it won't be SULONG before long."- yan daw yung title ng maroon 5 na album. sulong mga kapatid!
"bawal ang kandila dun (crypt)? ano pa ang masusunog dun? eh lahat naman ng nandun abo na!- haha!
"kinakantot nanaman kayo ng kamalasan."- ang bastus!
"mga gunggung! mga hunyango! mga ulol!"- ang lalim ng tagalog! mga taga bulacan talaga!
"maguuwi naman kayo ng mga mahilabhilab."- bawal ang pangit sa pamilya
ayus ito. sige na. matutulog na ako. sleeping time. adios!
current mood:  tipsy
current music: stripper- soho dolls
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| Wednesday, January 23rd, 2008
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9:19 am - my teenage self is weeping
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| Monday, December 10th, 2007
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12:42 pm - siguro
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ang sarap mo sigurong maging boyfriend.
pwede ba na ako nalang ang mahalin mo? ako nalang. sige na.
hahahahahaha! =p
current music: carnival- the cardigans
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| Thursday, December 6th, 2007
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3:56 pm - funny stuff and a new job
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overheard 3 girls talking at the bean yesterday morning. they were talking about a girl na malamang ginigirl ng isa sa mga boys nila.
girl 1: ano naman itsura nya?
girl 2: oo nga. nakita mo na diba?
girl 3: (serious tone) hindi sya maganda.
(pause)
hindi din naman pangit.
(pause)
i mean... TAO sya.
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! putrages! PANALO! best description EVER! hahaha!
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a ym conversation with a friend who shall remain anonymous.
the topic: what would be a good gift to our friend who shall also remain anonymous.
note: (we're not mean ha! it's called cariño brutal! heehee! we always tease our friend about it. and it's okay with her! and we love her to bits anyway. *grins*)
friend: she wants men and booze
earniez_m: parati naman noh
friend: hahaha will get her a bottle of alcohol
friend: parang mas madali yun hehehe
earniez_m: i'll get her a dick???
friend: actually if you want we can all chip in for a BOB
earniez_m: BOB?
friend: battery operated boyfriend
earniez_m: HAHAHAHAHAHA
friend: at least if she's tigang she can do somehthing about it
earniez_m: but she's ALWAYS TIGANG
earniez_m: kawawa naman si bob
friend: we better get her rechargeable batteries then
earniez_m: tangina. baterya kaya ng kotse?
earniez_m: hahahaha
friend: motolite
friend: hahahaha
earniez_m: WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
motolite amputa! hahaha!
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in other news, I HAVE A JOB! yehey! i'm officially part of the corporate world! started last tuesday. so far, konti palang ang ginagawa ko. petiks muna. but at least i get paid for idle time! (i can hear new and shiny goodies beckoning me already! ahhh!) but i heard it's gonna be real kagulo soon. goodluck to me. kaya chillax muna. so far, so good. my only problem is waking up at 515 am! yes, you heard me. 5 friggin' AM. ito na ata ang pinaka maaga na gising ko sa buong buhay ko EVER! kahit nung grade school o high school and even college, never ako nagising ng ganito kaaga. and as most (or should i say all?!) of my friends know, I AM NOT A MORNING PERSON. AT ALL. sana hindi ako mamatay sa antok. gaaaah. pero i can do this. yes i can. go me! (thinking of new shiny things, the gold at the end of the rainbow and being in makati. haha!)
current mood: amused
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| Thursday, November 22nd, 2007
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4:24 pm - pinakamahal na fridge ever!
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| Wednesday, November 21st, 2007
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11:18 pm - sickly, sucky
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i've been getting sick lately. my immune system is shot. 2 fevers in a month! it's bad bad bad.
and it doesn't help that when i'm sick, i miss her. the major fussing, the your health is important lecture, the super duper spoiling. yeap, it's that time when i miss my mom the most.
current mood:  sick
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| Thursday, November 15th, 2007
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1:12 am - mahal na mahal kita. at ang sakit sakit na.
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that movie is going to be in my list of favorite love team movies of all time! OMG. ang galing ng dialogue. ang galing ng acting ni john lloyd. ang galing ng chemistry. ok pa yung pag timing ng comedy. at napaiyak ako. yun yon eh.
haaay. gusto ko na ng love. kahit masakit.
current mood:  enthralled
current music: i'll never go- erik santos
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| Thursday, November 8th, 2007
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1:05 pm - shit + urine= a new drug
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would you try a drug that is a byproduct of urine and shit?!
apparently there's this new hallucinogen called jenkem. it's the gas emitted from fermented urine and feces. ack. a police department even made an information bulletin about it. see it here.
they say it's a hoax. but if it was real, would you even try it?!
current mood: amused
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| Tuesday, October 9th, 2007
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1:04 am - barbie dolls
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when i was a kid i was content with my small collection of barbie dolls. was especially fond of the red glittery gowned one. i was happy when new clothes came out. was ecstatic when my mom bought me a ken. then the car. then this scenery thing made out of cardboard! then i outgrew my barbie phase. (i just wish i knew where i kept my favorite one.) BUT it never fails to amaze me how barbie dolls have evolved. from a few pieces to over a thousand! the regular dolls. the limited edition dolls. they have a fashion label. techie gadgets. name it barbie has it!
so why was i still suprised when i read about this? (apparently, it is considered to be one of the hottest toys around):
Barbie Girls.
A Barbie toy that interacts with online worlds. The Barbie Girls unit is an MP3 player that connects to a computer and unlocks a virtual world where girls create an avatar -- or virtual character -- and design their own "room," shop at a mall, go to the salon, play games, hang out and chat live with other girls. Add-on packs unlock more content. (oh diba ang sosyal!? so techie! so maluho! i love it.)
maybe because i am jealous. okay, i am jealous! why didn't they have those during my time! dammit! and maybe i want to be a child again. and ask for barbie stuff. and actually get it because i can be a brat when it matters and barbie is a matter of life and death for a 7 year old child. then life wouldn't have to be so complicated. i would be in my little corner, happily playing with my goodies that meant the world to me. barbie dolls are reminders of the youth i once had. of the days when everything was freakin' peachy perfect in my world. what would i give to have that world again.
now hand me that barbie girls toy. and those pretty dolls. i still want those. haha! regression ba ito?! i guess i can give it to my children in the waaay distant future anyway. =p
current mood: amused
current music: gimme more- britney spears (in my head)
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| Tuesday, August 21st, 2007
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3:47 am - the time out corner
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so i haven't been posting. been too preoccupied figuring out my other online accounts. i'm web whoring and this is all ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) punchdrunkdaisy's fault. haha! but i miss taray_queen and nainggit ako dahil nagupdate ng blog si saul at nagpapaantok din ako. haha! =)
basically my life is on the downtime right now (that's why i haven't been writing). nothing big or great has been happening. and it's okay. this is exactly what i need. a time out. when people ask me what's new, i can't think of anything new so i say the truth: "nothing. same old same old". if this happened a few months back, i would be antsy and upset and questioning the meaning of my life. everyone's caught up in a whirlwind of events as opposed to me. i am simply an onlooker. but it's fine. i think i've had enough "excitement" (i can't think of a better term!) to tide me over until the next wave of events (pleasant ones this time pls!).
i am in the time out corner. surprisingly, it's not as bad as i thought it would be. ;p
current mood:  katams
current music: La Même Histoire- feist
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| Saturday, July 21st, 2007
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2:47 am - psychobabble
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"if love is surrender, then whose war is it anyway?"- frou frou
current mood: tipsy
current music: grace- kate havnevik
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| Saturday, May 19th, 2007
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4:24 am - moving out moving on
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i'm moving out in 10 days. 10 FRIGGIN' DAYS. it breaks my heart to pack our things in balikbayan boxes, to see the condo in shambles, to give away most of my mom's things that i can't wear (the shoes! oh those lovely shoes!), to leave makati (my comfort zone. the place where i grew up in. my playground.), to leave my makati friends. le sigh. i guess this is really moving on eh?
i can totally relate with what meg ryan's character said in You've Got Mail:
Kathleen: The truth is, the world is just... different.
Soon we'll just be a memory. In fact, someone, some foolish person will probably think it's a tribute to this city, the way it keeps changing on you, the way you can never count on it, or something. I know, because that's the sort of thing I'm always saying. But the truth is, I'm heartbroken. I feel as if part of me has died, and my mother has died all over again, and no one can ever make it right.
i'll be back. i promise.
current mood:  aggravated
current music: give it away- deepest blue
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